An Imperfect Dynamic
So B and I have been working at Calico for a little over a month, and we’ve recently met a LOT of our Instagram following (which we’re super excited about)! But there’s been something on my heart that I feel like I need to share and to clarify. Something clicked in my mind today while…
You Won’t Always Be Married to the Same Person
Your spouse won’t always be the same person that you married, and honestly, thank God for that. Can you imagine if they never changed? How boring would that be? Seriously, imagine it for one minute. Think of who you were 10 years ago. Go ahead. It doesn’t even matter how old you are currently. If…
Husband Appreciation
Let’s give a shoutout to the husband of the day – Mine. B has been in my life for about three years, almost to the date. He’s grown so much in that time. When I met him, he was this care-free hippie dude who was gentle and quiet. His silence and lingering mystery made me want to…
10 Tips for Taking Care of Your Sick Spouse
Sniffles. Headaches. Fever. Cough. Tissues… It can all be a little overwhelming when your spouse is sick. B was sick with the flu alllll last week, and it was so hard to watch. Mostly because financially, we’re tight right now. So I couldn’t risk catching his illness and missing work. Otherwise I’d’ve been able to…
Millenial Marital Warfare
As I sat with my friend, M, and we exchanged our marital war stories, I made the comment about how all of the adults growing up always told us that marriage was “hard.” Marriage was “a battle.” But honestly? How can marriage be hard? You’re just living with your best friend. You get to sleep next…
“How lucky I am to have someone that makes saying goodbye so hard.”
Recently my husband got a new job. And we had been working side by side for around three or so years. And on his first day we went out to go get a coffee before work, and as we were walking back to our own separate cars it finally hit me that this was it.
“Take pride and take ownership in what I’ve given you… and then we’ll talk.”
“Take pride and take ownership in what I’ve given you… and then we’ll talk.” I had hardly started my prayer. I was about to pray for guidance on a new house hunting venture my husband and I find ourselves to be seeking a little more each day. I had just set up three viewings for…
TW: Pregnancy, Miscarriage, Religion, Abortion
Trigger Warning: Pregnancy, Miscarriage, Religion, Abortion, and a really weird concept that has no proof and can neither be confirmed nor denied Around Thanksgiving last year I heard someone tell the story of their life from before their birth, from memory. They talked about being in Heaven with God before they were born. They remembered…
Does it Ever End?
We’ve been getting our butts kicked lately. •B busted a knee at work about a week before Chiquito was born. It’s not getting better. •I was diagnosed with preeclampsia at 34 weeks and then suffered from internal bleeding after my c section that made it impossible for me to move, eat, or drink without excruciating…
“SEXY ASS HOUSEWIFE!”
“Sexy Ass Housewife!” He says as he cat-calls me to try and gas me up. He’s been doing this all day. Today I wore a dress. It’s yellow with flowers everywhere. It has those cute little coconut wood buttons, and the way it shapes around my chest makes me feel like a woman. A couple…
“You are kind and strong. Pessimism is a false god.”
THREE DAYS AGO I kept my eyes on the dish I was washing while I asked my husband, “Do you think I’m nice?” -Yes! “Would you have said the same thing three weeks ago?” -Maybe not. “So I’m not nice.” -You’re nice to other people! It’s just easier to be nice to other people. It’s…
“Everything you’ve ever wanted is on the other side of not giving up.”
The last 3 months have been incredibly challenging. From the last two months of my pregnancy rendering me essentially useless, an incredibly traumatizing birth experience, Papito getting sick, B getting sick, struggling with postpartum psychosis and having no clue what was going on, watching Chiquito start to turn blue after he vomited in his sleep…
Did we all know this about the Proverbs 31 woman?
Proverbs 31. Let’s look at the Proverbs 31 woman, because I’m feeling chewed up and spat out this morning, and she feels impossible to match. The first point they make: (I’m using a combination of the Complete Jewish Bible Version and ESV.) “An excellent wife who can find?” Let me stop right there and type…
We’re entitled to hate being a mom somedays. Right?
I’d say we’re entitled to five days a year to hate being a mom and it be socially acceptable. We can hate everything about it. Five days a year. But realistically it’s more like 50. How many days per year do we actually hate being a mom? Question our entire existence? Wonder how we are…
My husband and I renewed our vows, and in our true fashion – it went terribly. Part 1
Set the scene, it’s 7 years ago and I’m standing in the kitchen with this guy I really liked. We had been hanging out for a couple weeks, and we were hosting a small dinner party with a couple friends. While we stood in the kitchen, one of our friends asks us if we’re dating…
My husband and I renewed our vows, and in our true fashion – it went terribly. Part 2
Let’s set the scene again. We’re 9 months down the road and marriage had been on our minds for a while. He had asked my dad. We had talked about rings. I had asked him to please not propose in the apartment. We had this figured out. One day I was mid-period, a relative had…
My husband and I renewed our vows, and in our true fashion – it went terribly. Part 3
Set the scene: Three months later we arrived to our wedding reception in his parents’ backyard. I had my heart set on a donut cake because we had a sunrise wedding and a coffee and donuts theme reception. It was a simple design of course – glazed donuts stacked on top of each other to…
My husband and I renewed our vows, and in our true fashion – it went terribly. Part 4
Fast foward SIX years – yes, he made me wait six instead of the five we had agreed on – we’re two kids deep, new town, new house, new job – the works. And we decide it’s the perfect time to “start over.” One day, the new ring he bought me comes in the mail.…
My husband and I renewed our vows, and in our true fashion – it went terribly. Part 5 (finally)
We planned something very small. Our son was having his second birthday party and we decided we would carve out 15 minutes of the party to renew our vows with our closest family that meant the most to us. My husband asked his best friend to be his best man, and I asked my sister…
A love letter to my husband
I want to make a home for you. I want you to wake up to the smell of a freshly brewed pot of coffee and the sounds of our little one softly cooing in the bassinet next to the bed. I want you to make your way upstairs, eyes still sleepy, as we greet each…
Can you put a price on self-esteem?
I’m getting tired of this SAHM wardrobe that I have. I mean, I’m still rocking my pregnancy leggings and torn up shirts. This fall I was wearing different dresses everyday, and that was awesome. I felt great, and I felt purposeful. But it’s too cold for dresses, and to be honest it just doesn’t *feel*…
When I begged God to change the path for me, He changed me instead. And thank God He did.
Everything that happens, Everything that has happened, Everything that will happen is a little piece of God’s plan for us. That’s always been something I’ve held onto, but have had a hard time accepting in times of hurt. How is this going to help me? How can this possibly benefit me in the future? How…
I cried really hard this morning.
I cried this morning. Actually, I cried really hard this morning. I looked at my son and I remembered the feeling I got when I saw my first ever positive pregnancy test. I remembered the feeling I got when I saw my next two “first” positive pregnancy tests. That feeling is unmatched. It’s this beautiful…
Sometimes my kid wins. Battle Royale. Mom vs Toddler.
I know I’m not supposed to say it’s mom vs kid – but let’s just be real for a second. It sure as hell feels like it somedays.
I found out my best friend isn’t my other half. They’re my other 35%.
I’m not a “well seasoned” mom. After the last 5 months of adjusting my meds trying to find the right balance, I’ve been consistently 35% less present than I need to be in every situation. All things mom, all things self, all things house, all things marriage, and all things religion. Admittedly, I’m not 100%…
The calming sounds of the barely audible soft boil.
I stood there in silence, the golden hour of sunlight shining through my window onto the counter, listening to the soft boil of the water on the stove. I relished in it. I listened to the pitter patter of my son’s feet hitting the floor as he ran through the kitchen into the living room.…
I find comfort in the quiet.
I don’t share quite as much, quite as often as I used to. I went through the death of a sibling and birthing two children without ever posting about any of them. I learned after my brother’s death that I wanted privacy and quiet in the midst of tragedy much more than I wanted condolences.…
I wrote a goodbye letter to my 1 year old
I really struggled with homemaking for the first year and a half. I battled a crippling mental disorder that I had no clue about while running a business out of my home, raising a baby, and keeping house. Or at least attempting to. Shortly after I had a diagnosis I became pregnant again which put…
Was Joseph innocent and ignorant or immature and petty?
We talked a lot last night about how Joseph must’ve felt. How he felt when he told his brothers about his dreams. How he felt when he was sold off into slavery by his brothers. How he felt when he was pursued again and again by Potiphar’s wife. How he felt when he was in…
Being diagnosed bipolar saved my life and my marriage
I don’t know how else to say it. Before my diagnosis, something about my marriage was just off. It wasn’t my marriage itself, and I knew that, but it seemed like something was wrong with me. We thought it was hormones at first. We knew I dealt with depression from time to time. We were…